Dear Friend,

Where did you go? I know this emotion surfaced for me only recently, but I know your tendencies and I'm losing you again. Not necessarily you being physically there, but I'm losing the person I thought I could talk to about anything. I was told not to trust you, but you were my backbone because I was thrown into a new place and you were the one who was there. But you're doing exactly what you promised you wouldn't do. And I don't think you even notice. We promised each other we could talk about anything and we needed to communicate, but I'm scared to communicate with you. You promise you'll listen, but I can't help but doubt that. I shouldn't feel like I'm walking on broken glass around you, but that feeling is seeping back into my every day life. This scares me to death. You know I am here for you, and right now I really need you to be there for me, even if you are contributing to the pain I am feeling. I cherish you, I don't want to lose you to those things I've lost you to before. Do you remember everything we talked about in the past? I do. Things were great. Now my heart is heavy whenever we cross paths, which is starting to become less frequent because you're going back to what you told me to help you stay away from. But I know and have accepted that I can't make your decisions for you. But please be careful. You are a wonderful and beautiful young woman and I don't want to see you hurt again.

I miss you. I love you.

me