Dear College.

Dear College,

You have amazed me. I thought you were ruining my life, but I was very mistaken. You are making life unpredictable and that is so beautiful. College is the best time of your life right? Well you are beginning to make me realize that. Mom told me I’d love you, and sure enough, mother was right. I hate when that happens. You still make me worry about my future and finances and such, but that’s life right?. You remind me every day that I’m growing up and I have to think a little bit more about what I do, but I’m accepting that. You make it hard to read my bible, you make it hard not to touch alcohol and other substances, but in contrast, you make it easy to love what is around me. You complicate everything, but you help everything too! You have ruined my sleeping schedule, reminded me of my awful time management skills, and emptied every penny from my wallet, but it’s worth it because I am learning. You stress me out, but you also make me smile. My heart isn’t hurting anymore, it’s just adjusting to change. I went home to my own bed, my own kitchen, and my own fireplace because I thought it was what I wanted, and then I realized I began to miss you slowly. You gave me a break, but now I’m ready to come back and conquer you. I don’t know how to be a perfect adult yet, but who am I kidding? There is no perfect adult. I love the independence, and you made me feel alone at first, but not anymore. I thought you were turning me into someone I wasn’t, but you’re actually molding me into who I will be, and I’m appreciating the little bumps along the way. I’m sorry I was so hard on you at first college. I could have embraced the opportunities you set before my eyes at first, instead of going to the bars and wasting time napping because I stay up until 3 am every night. I’m embracing the opportunities now, I promise. I know I shouldn’t have blamed you for all my stupid tendencies and decisions, but you were the main thing consuming my life at the time, so I felt like you were the only thing I could blame. Thanks college, you’re rockin’ my world in 417389574398 different ways right now. Don’t back off, I’m a work in progress. I’ll get there eventually. I’ll be patient with you from now on, I promise.

P.S. Thanks for the wake up call.

Your content friend,

Paige