I'm back

Hello there. After a brief hiatus we have connected once again. It's funny how quickly life can take off and leave no time for little things. How have you been? I've been alright. Thank you for asking. I'm ready to move in to my apartment. I still have a month left here, then it's back to the land of corn. A month of working, sitting, thinking, sleeping, collecting my thoughts, evaluating the past and planning the future. Wish me luck.

Preparation

Here I am, Back in good ole' North Carolina. Back to barbeque, sweet tea, and hushpuppies. Back to my father's amazing cooking, my mother's back massages, my brother accidentally throwing lacrosse balls through the living room window, and my sister's "I own the world" attitude. Back within reach of the first 18 years of my life.

The verizon store moved. I was so confused when I went to Hillsborough Road to find no verizon store. There are a few new homes going up on our side of town. I don't remember it being this hott in NC over the summer. My bedroom has been repainted, rearranged, and turned into my brother's workout room. It is still dark as night, windowless, and the same temperature as outside (miserably hot this time of year). My bed sits in the corner, and my suitcases border the far wall. All of my belongings left behind when I moved away are now in black bags underneath the futon...Sadie, our family dachshund we have had for nearly 15 years...she's almost blind now. It's scary to look at her because her eyes have turned white. She can barely hear either. Even skip, the mut, he's not as energetic. When you leave for a while, life keeps going. People and things keep going and growing old. Will the dog who watched me grow since I was 4 years old not be here the next time I come home?

I've seen a few friends since I flew in on Sunday afternoon. It's different. Well, I am different. I can't blame any of them, I am the one who moved 1500 miles away and began a new life. What made me push away the old one?

I'm not sure how I feel about this...I better prepare myself for the next 2 months. I knew it would be different, but am I ready to take the difference to heart?